i finally discovered that my greatest fear was not being alone , its being vulnerable . 

hate this few days , dont know what happened , troubles seem unstoppable

i cant solve any problem , instead im making it worst , im so sick of all this shit . whats my solution? god damn it . what's wrong ? whats the problem ? can someone just correct me ?  

is it my mouth that started all this uninvited troubles? i dont want to push the blame to anyone , i dont need you to help me solve any shit , i just want eveything peace and right , then im fine with it  . realise that its time to zip my mouth and stop all those shit that i created . perhap this incident  , i will lose you as my friend  . is thats the only solution ?   NAH . i will only hate myself and feel more gulity . sorry guys . im really sorry .

its rainning outside . hahs , so hot and stuffy , will i get to see the rainbow after the rain?

BORED .BORED , BORED .

no work , no money . no income . sigh -. - money drop from the sky please !!!