My grandfather

To; Dearest grandfather,


I know that i wont be able to have a converstion with you again. Talking is like arguing to us. Always fighting with you to make you notice me. And i always know that you love me.
How are you doing over there? Did you eat? Is it very cold out there? Have enough clothing? Do you have a shelter at there? Where are you now?  And alot more...Million of question without any reply. How upset am i.

Sorry i promise not to cry again. But i couldnt. I convincing myself that everything will be okay. But its not okay. Im notlright. I couldnt take this blow. It happened too fast. Im not even mentally prepare for all this. Within one night and youre gone with the wind. Why didnt you wait for me? Im not even back from my flight yet. I didnt even see you for the last time. You haven even hug me or even tell me what you wish to say. i couldnt make it there .

This is the worst cny and the most disaster 2014. I fcuking hate this. Why does this happento me. Wtf is this. Why do i even have to face this . I cried my whole heart out but i didnt feel better. Im still very affected by it. I really miss you. I miss you alot.

If i can rewind. I wont go for this shitney flight.  And I won't even regret not staying back for you. I will definitely visit you every slot.  I know you hate hospital. I hate too. But I couldn't let you go. I just want you to be healthy and stay fit. Eat more and be more cheerful.  Talk to me. Scold me and tease me. I really need you as you're my strength of pillar.  Remember what i promised you.? To help you cut hair for cny., let you be more handsome then usual.  You break our promise. I haven't cut your hair yet. Why do you do this to me?

啊公我爱你。
Rest in peace
28.1.2014

Twenty- one

I will never be alone.

Feel so good that everyone appreciate my present and i feel loved.
To all my family and friends, I LOVE YOU ALL

My future will be a question mark but i promise myself, I wont change.
For my family,my girls and for my boy.

No matter how hard its gonna be, i will still be the one and only huihui chan
Endure, Be strong and be happy.


xoxo
Hh 

Rainbow

4 more days.
After the rain, there's rainbow ((:

A short update about my life
[Me] huihui chan, gonna graduate soon, like real soon, time files!
A meet up with my girls pass few days, life get better and i got a super sweet fam and friends
Time is essential.
Making me realise that every now and then, i need to grab hold and dote on those that dote me.
Make time for each other no matter how busy i am or how terrible my life is.
Life still goes on.
And i became stronger. Now i can manage my time, i can handle stress ^^
Im so cooooooooool la !
To all my friends, even though we lost contact or whateverrrrrr! Im glad that you all came into my life and i love all of you ((: 

Lastly, my dear boy, i have to say, neh neh ni poo! Not gonna write anything to you ! XP

xoxo
huihui chan

Pat on my back

Choinging my fyp now, Bad news- I'm Sick. Down w cough and i can hardly breathe.

Le sigh.

Jiayou ((:

Kiss

Tuesday, extremely cold weather, carefree.

Thinking back, i have been clumsy and careless for most of the time and my hot temper really made me suffer. Feel super uneasy and uncomfortable w my own temper. Really wish that i could be more tamed.

School have been a long run. Almost breakdown. But i got back up. Yes, never ever let anyone affect you. You live for yourself. Not others. So don't even let yourself feel weak. I will be who i am. The real me is me.

No one is born to please you. Just because they give in to you once, doesn't mean that they have to give in to you everytime.

Thanks for bearing my short temper & choose to stay by myside boy. We play Trust, remember ((:

XOXO

300 days of sweetness

J.Boy

Weeeee ~
HAPPY300DAYSTOUS!

Hehehe, My baby boy, thanks for being there for me. ILOVEYOU
You are the best thing i ever have.
Action speaks louder than words. Soooooooo this post is for you.
Nothing is perfect. And we will work hard together. Count on us 184 ((:

Love, Huihui chan

CUZZIE

My cuzzie turn 21 ! Teehee, so happy for her. Her grand 21st birthday. Make me wanna plan mine soooooooooon. Ohmymotherrrr ~ need to wait till next year. SO FREAKING LONG LAAAAAA
SEMO NIAO!!!
HAHAHAAHHA. Nvm, got longer time to plan. I WANT A POOL PARTY.
So freaking cooooool la. Like at overseas chilling, relax nia.

Okay i think too much.
But i wont cross out this idea. HEHEHE, more to go ^^

xoxo

Changes

So maybe, you got to be the one that save me,

Was discussing about social life w my boy, we both agree that after you're attach, your friends will mia.
HAHAHA. I sound kinda busthird. But sad to admit, it' s the fact.

I lost 1, 2 , 3, 4, 5 ... ? i don't know how many friends. Trying so hard to please everyone. Making me realize that not all my friends are real. Its not like you need them and they need you in your life. Some are just by passer. They stop cause its red light and move on when its green.

There are many things that i like to says to you but dont know how.
To those that choose to leave, afterall i cant force you to stay
So maybe im not that important to you.
But i respect your decision.

I will treat you, the way you treat me.
Fair & Square.

I am so tired of false hope and broken promise. Times & times im being blinded by all those shit.
Feel so cheated and not worth it. Make me feel that i'm not significant. Just another friend. Fcuk this shit   _l_

I Don't Know

My Day

                                         Just realise, miss oon no take pic!so i grab it from fb!! ((:

Yes! It's my birthday today !! Thanks dearest boyf for doing so much surprise gift for me. Im truly insanely and madly happy. Spending all his time, planing and making me enjoyed my 20th birthday. My 傻瓜, ILOVEYOU,JACKYKOK! <3

Thanks my dearest girls and boys to celebrate with me. So awesome that you guys willing to accompany me and give me your time. So sweet of all of you. I LOVE YOU ALL! MUACKIES! ALL DA SURPRIXES, CUP CAKE, CAKE( bake by missoon) ^^ YAY The dress, so that i can be feminine, the card w lotta blessing wishing and naiming! HEHEHHE ^^ Lotta love and appreciate it! ((:  Special thanks to miss oon, vonnie, cecilia, james, haziq, zul and huilingggg chan!

To my dollies! Wooooosh the surprize is half failed. but i love it ! thanks for spending your sunday with me w  the big big sun ! HEHEHEH You girls are my bunch of crazy girl, LOVE ALL OF YOU! MUACK MUACK MUACK! Grateful to Shin chaota, Peggy baby and kelly simba! Not to forget my sissy, danielle and shayne! HEHEHEH Last but not least Huiling chann! Saw your name? Appear twice eh! Teehee

A big round of applause to my baby, because of me, he's sick. I just want to says, ILOVEYOU and INEEDYOU. You're the best that i ever had. And thanks for entering in my life. could you stay longer? Maybe forever ? ^^ <3

200 Days Of Love

You brighten up my life like nobody else, stay with me <3

Supearlwoman

After the thunderstorm, there's rainbow.
Finally i endure 3/4 of my y3s1. Yes, INTERNSHIT
Sup, hehehe im doing fine.
Pretty awesome. Another 2 more weeks and i can end my internshit! YAYHOO!
Gonna nua and relax, although no more bkk trip. Which i make a fuss over it. But nvm,  shall save up and go overseas the next sem?
Teehee.

Someone told me, if its your darkest period, you alr at the bottom so nothing gonna affect me. I will rise up again,. and tadah, im gonna be Cool again.

No more mood swing. Just smile
Feel super duper happy that i got lots of friends concerning about me, And dear boyf, try to cheer me up w fried nutella.
(I LONG AGO WANNA DO IT! HAHAHA ) Super nice.
Im such a blessed girl. Love them so much.
Shall plan a more awesome trip soon.

Me need to train my temper. Super hot temper and demanding girlf. HAHAHA. Like a chilli padi eh? Hmmmms, not something to be proud of. Laugh. And my hair really need to maintian. Kns, now like grass/Brushes. Unglam max -.-

The reason why i update this blog?
I wanna share ((:

17/7/2012 Be contented <3

The reason

I Need You

I will be the last one standing

Did lotta self reflection this few days. I know that im not a good friend. Im not there for my friends when they need me. Always absent from gathering. Neglecting them ever since i start having different group of friends/ boyf. Im utterly sorry. I know that its abit late to let you guys know now. Perhaps you guys will never know( my dead blog.) HAHAHA. I really wish i could treasure all my friendship. I wont give up on all of you. Please dont give up on me. Dont forget me, i promise i will give in my best. Attentdance will be taken. i will make time for you guys and be there whenever you need me. I wont abandon you all. I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS. XOXO

Once i know you, i wont let you go.
一次朋友，一辈子朋友！

24/5/2012
I need a pillar, be there for me.
Just lend me a hug, a long tight hug to assure me that its not the end, everything is gonna be alright To make me feel that im not alone, at least some one is standing together with me..
You don't have to solve my problem. I can handle this, really
Don't let my mood affect your's, this way i will feel terrible.
Wont lose hope, if its not okay, its not the end . . .

也许超人也会累。

Stay positive, after the thunderstorm, there's rainbow.

18/5/2012
Shall do a short update, hehheh!
Recently things are not good for me. The stress and pressure im handling, words cant describle it.
Perhaps its time for me to grow up, to the adult hood. Not to be daydreaming forever, thinking that everyone have the same mindset as me. Im too kiddo. Alrighty, i cant change the fact but to keep on encourage myself, things will be better. If its not okay. its gonna be alright, maybe not today, not tomorrow but some other days. ^x^

This earth is ugly but not all man kind are.
Sincerely hope that everyone can treat each other w their real, kind heart, instead of being hyprocite.

I love my small eyes boy. Dont doubt, just believe, trust me.
Things wont change. Once you're mine, you will be mine truly. Dont be afraid of what ever happened.
At times,I may neglect you but i wont forget you You hold a significant position in my heart. Just like my family. <3

To all my friends. Once you enter my life. Please dont go, cause i hate goodbye, leaving. If you intend to go, dont bother entering. I dont need short term friends.I want REAL FRIENDS. I promise, i will treasure our friendship.


xoxo
huihui, hang in there
(:

Getaway

I need a getaway.

INTERNSHIP
Counting down, 3week had pass

Things getting from bad to worse. Got into this shitty company which is fuggy racist.
Hate it.
Hey bitches, get the fact. THIS IS SINGAPORE!
IT'S MULTI RACIAL PLEASE -. -
If youre racist, you are not gonna make big money cause of your narrow mind and stupig thinking
BTH YOU,THICK MAKE UP BITCH, CHAO NEH NEH

Endure, hui hui endure, close one eyes and open one eyes kay? c:
Smile, please smile.

xoxo 

Reality

Nolife.com

Sick.
Hi, finally start my internship. Good or bad? I got nth much to say. Just gonna bear w it. Jiayou huihui
Bite your lips and end this hell period kay. HEEHEE

I miss having afternoon nap. Really.
KTHXBAI.

Short update! Kay, kinda long,  HEHE

                                               Bdae Boy ! ACTING CUTE AGAIN -.-

 

Babyboy 22nd Bdae <3 

Liquor ko me. Totally dk what the hell im doing. I guess im a sucker. Oh gosh, why i cant endure all those evil temptation. Gonna control next time i drink. Fcuking swear i wont lose to liquor. Wont ever lose control again. Fcuking look so scary that night. As though i have split personality. WHAT DA FUG , SCARY MUCH

I really hope that baby boy enjoyed his bdae but i guess, without liq will be better, everyone will be conscious of what they are doing and no one will be affected.

Drink .Drank. Drunk

I Love j.k.c.w.